Sunday, September 4, 2011

Day 8

(Teeny made her laugh so hard... thanks!!)

The steroids have made their appearance. Welcome!

Cravings, eating and eating. Most kids request/crave McDonalds or fast food. Not Taleah... she requested Cafe Rio. Yep, 10:30 am and she wants Rio. Phone call to grammy and Cafe Rio delivered 30 min later. What a lucky girl! Snappy little attitude and wanting mommy almost all day. Hoping her sleep isn't too interrupted by these, but chances are.... it will. Counting down to the end of this 1st month.

Scott wanted to go to church today... and I did not. Not because I don't love church, or I'm not thankful for the ward, but it was fast and testimony meeting and I knew that I would be prompted to get up and share my feelings/testimony. I told him that I was not ready and this was all too fresh. It is...but he wanted my support and he wanted to publicly thank the ward for all of their hard work/support.

It turns out, church was what I needed. Took some of the anger out of my heart and pointed me in the right direction. One statement that hit me hard... committment to the gospel will get you through hard things. I know that this sucks and it's hard, but using my knowledge of the gospel and the Atonement helps. A lot. Another ward member pointed out that service is something they are willing to do. And even though sometimes it is hard to be the receiver of service, accept it and embrace it. Others will be blessed and they want to help. That is a lesson I have learned very quickly. I will do my best to embrace it. We appreciate it more than ever! The ward was very sweet and supportive. It was hard to make it through sacrament meeting, but we did. And I know it was just what I needed.


  1. Wow! You are so amazing. I haven't even been to sacrament 2 months later. And it is literally in the hall of the hospital. You are all so loved and everyone is WANTING to help in anyway to relieve your pain. don't forget to read that talk. we are still praying for you all

  2. Steroids are terrible aren't they? Kaylee had to take them for only a week and I couldn't wait for her to be done with them. Those mood swings were something else. YiKeS! Glad Taleah had a good laugh today and some Cafe Rio. Rio does the heart good. :)
    So glad church was soup for your soul.
    Have a great day tomorrow.

  3. You don't know me, but I know the Stevenson family. My name is Kandace Wittwer and my sister, Heather, is in your ward. I just read some of your posts and was really touched by the post on Day 5. My first baby girl passed away 9 years ago from a heart defect. She was only 3 weeks old at the time. I don't know what it's like to experience day-to-day life with a sick child, but I understand your initial hurt because I experienced all of those emotions too. Why me? Why do I have to be strong enough to handle this? I wish I wasn't. The emotions you experience are very real and only time can help you understand to some degree the purpose for our trials here in mortality. Though I would take my baby girl back in a heartbeat if I could, I am sincerely grateful for the lessons I learned from the experience I had. I am also grateful for the perspective I have gained in life. Do not take the time you have with your children for granted!! They are so precious. I wish you all the best as you learn to handle the trial that has come to you and your family. You will get through this. Taleah is such a cutie and the Lord is mindful of all of you.

  4. Wow Tosha, just saw your post today about cancer and found your blog. So sorry to hear about your little girl. You are amazing, hang in there.That is one strong little girl you have as well. We will add our prayers to the rest and you guys will get through this tough time.

  5. Church really got me through (and continues to) our Cancer Journey... You sound so strong already, so thanks for inspiring me. When our Tayleah got Cancer almost 2 years ago, that was one of the hardest things - accepting so much help. I wanted to just do it all and take care of my family by myself (I was also 20 weeks pregnant when we found out, too). I found that I couldn't do it by myself, which was hard to handle. I learned I needed to let others serve me, and that the Lord was answering my prayers through them. Please keep sharing and good luck with it all!

  6. Tosha I'm so sad I missed church that day. I heard it was a wonderful meeting and that you and Scott's testimonies were very touching. We are praying for you guys every day. I would love to bring dinner or do anything we can to help.