The morning wasn't too bad. She didn't feel too great and didn't want to move much, but I could tell a difference. She was mostly a little weak, the port was still sore and the spot where they took the bone marrow sample.
Around 2pm, she started being herself again. Not 100%, but a little spunk was coming out. I loved it! So much!
She didn't have too much to do today and it was kind of nice for her to just use the bathroom, eat and drink (a little), have vitals taken, and take lots of medicine. Nothing too traumatizing and a chance to take it all in.
I had some visits from different "crews" around the hospital. It reminded me how much I still have to learn. It is a little overwhelming and they stack of papers/binder keep staring me in the face. I haven't read much of it and I know I need to. It's almost as if I don't read it then it won't be real. I know it is, but I just don't want to think about it. I will learn what I need to and do my best to care for my baby. Maybe it has all been so fast...
Treena had some serious dance moves. It was VERY entertaining. Taleah loved all of the visitors we had today. Thank you for coming and showing your love and support.
Around 9pm (right after this picture), she became tired and in a little pain. It then reminded me why were here and what the next little while will be like. It was kind of slap in the face after the good hours we had together. I know this is how the next 2-3 years will be.
As for me, the rollercoaster was not as extreme today. Probably due to the happy girl I was able to spend time with. I did break down when the social worker came in to remind me of the rules and kindly "put me in my place". Oh and I did break down when I saw the sweet girl with a mask and no hair in the lobby of our unit. Oh and then there was another in the shower. I feel like I am accepting it though and trying to stay positive. It is is the hardest when the crying comes in front of her and then she becomes upset. Also, when people come to visit and they see her and cry. I know how they feel and I feel the same, but it makes her nervous because she thinks something is terribly wrong...which is her having cancer. Still not right.
We are so overwhelmed by the support we have received. All of these people that want to help and I have NO idea how to thank/repay them. It is extremely humbling. The ward, family and friends..THANK YOU!
Hoping tomorrow will be a good day. We will be getting ready for the next big day...day 4. She will receive some blood transfusions, platelets and more fluid. Go Taleah!