Taleah's Buzz Party

Oh wow! This is when I knew we would be actually having "the party". I knew it would happen (even though secretly I was still hoping that maybe she would beat the odds). When I combed her hair and ended up with 1/3 of it in a pile, I knew we had to do it. The only problem was the fact that she didn't want to and wanted to "let it fall out".

I did my best to talk to her and explain the perks of no hair.... no washing, no combing out and no hair all over the place. She expressed to me how it made her ANGRY inside when her hair was falling out everywhere, so I might have used that to my advantage. I tentatively set it up for the next day at 4pm. We were trying to wait for my parents to get home but there was no way. I still wasn't sure if she was going to follow through but still got ready for the party which was fun for her (balloons and cupcakes.. that's it). Oh and she dressed up like a princess because I tried to emphasize the fact that she would be the most BEAUTIFUL princess ever!

We also looked at pictures of other "cancer kids". She wanted to have hers just like Cami. So we "cut" her hair before everyone came over. Had to get one last pic before the hair cutting began. Have to document the sweetest thing Chloe had been practicing.... she said, "Taleah, bald is beautiful!" Seriously brought tears to my eyes!





Then that chaos began. She was so excited to buzz their heads and was able to choose the order. Taylor was first, then Trevy, Grandpa Stevenson, TALEAH, and finally daddy. She was over it after 1 or 2 swipes of the hair.

I think she almost wanted to back out at this point but her friend Chloe said she would eat a cupcake with her after she buzzed it. Oh food.... yeah anything for food!

She was SO brave! I couldn't even believe it. She sat there and handled it so well. I don't know if the steroids maybe worked in our favor this time around. She kind of stared into space and let Scott work away. I tried to talk to her to distract, but I think it bugged her more.

At this point, she was annoyed by everyone... the noise, chaos and people trying to be sweet and talk to her/take pictures. She was DONE! All she wanted was soup from Kneaders...surprise!

Tavia gave her a barbie with a buzzed head. She loved it!

All the boys that she got to match with. She was the ONLY princess who got to buzz her head. Sweet girl!

Not that it matters, but I am holding it together better than I thought I would. But it matters cause she is my baby girl and her hair has always been "her thing". I have been stressed about this since the minute they told me she would lose her hair. It's almost like a weight has been lifted off because it's done and I don't have to stress about when it is going to happen. I am sure it will get harder when she goes out in public again and people stare at her. I am sure it will hit me at some point, but so far I haven't shed that many tears. I am just extremely proud.

I can't even believe how brave she was. She is such a sweetie and looks like an angel to me. Love her! It was great to have the support. Not to mention, someone dropped a cute cake labeled "Taleah's buzz party". That brought tears to my eyes too. The love we feel from others is unbelievable. Really. What an agel she is. Great job Taleah!